Blind with love...

I am the meanest girl. There is nothing in me to get.
How can you be so mean to me? I'm really not fair!
How could I make something so bad? I see nothing,
What have I forgotten?
What have I done that I do not know? 
Why you pushed me down when I was struggling?
What have I done so badly? 
It is a question I often have to ask. 
Give me a chance, please, just listen. 
My life has not exactly been easy. I just feel closer and closer.
I thought I was tired of you, until the day you left me.
What have I done to deserve this? 
I really thought you were the right thing.
The truth is that I am in love with a lie;
I think of you every minute in each
I hope this soon passes, so it is a night where I actually sleep...